[ Forgive This Selfish Bitch ]

Status FB semalam ada makna tersirat untuk diri sendiri.

I felt I've been seeing the close friends too very much that I think I'm starting to take them for granted.

I became a lil' bit ignorant for the past one week.
Malas reply message.
Tak mahu angkat phone calls.
I just wanna sleep and do nothing with them.

Bukan benci.
Macam dah kurang rindu.
But I know I still love them.

It's just...




entah.


Everyone in the group are tired, nak nak lagi Hari Bintang Jatuh '09: 3Venus is just around the corner.
Biarpun Along tiada pun sumbangan for the event, tapi cam penat gak.
Mengada siot.

Mungkin terlalu tak sabar untuk sampai ke hari itu pun boleh jadi penat.
Ah, kau memang mengada, Long.

I seriously don't know how Wani does it, but she pulls it through somehow.
Successfully lak tuh :)
And when she wrote a very close-to-the-heart note, my eyes were swelled with tears reading it.


I mean, how can I be so selfish?
How can I have this feeling in the first place?
How can..?
How?

I'm so so so sorry, Wani.

Tears swelled in my eyes that instant.
Tersentuh terus, macam dimarahi Ayah rasanya, cuma tak kena cubit saja.

When other friends commented the note, tapi komen yang tak relevan, Along mula rasa they were insensitive.
I went ballistic and almost bit his head off for calling me "emo terlebih."

Memang silap besar aa kan.
Biarpun memang betul apa dia cakap, but I was, ye lah, marah pada diri sendiri tapi still in denial bagai tapi nak sedar diri sendiri tapi ada plak yang sesindir, ARGHHH!

Sorry, Mal.
Sorry.

And it's like a magical coincidence, right after reading Wani's note and confronting Ikmal, dengan rasa nak menangis sangat dah ni, Ikim buzzed me in YM and wrote;

"Along;

LUV U."

I replied her with the 32 size font, bold it and said LOVE YOU TOO!!!

Sorry sangat, Kim.
For thinking that you were too busy for me :(



Terus menitik air mata.
AH KAU MEMANG EMOSI LONG!
T______T


Maafkan Along, sangat sangat.






And even though I still think I should not see them until this Sunday (egois wtf), biar kumpul rindu banyak banyak, I know I am missing them already.
Very much.





Along janji tak akan rasa macam ni lagi.
Tak mahu lagi dah.
Tak mahu.